Hindsight

Cognitional metamorphosis

I am unable to recollect when exactly the word “judgmental” started to revolve in the orbits of my cognitive domain.

This phenomenon probably began when I took a random detour and wandered with an analytical mind through the meanders of my viewpoints on various mundane affairs .I strongly suspect that this happened when my grey cells grew with vigor , directly proportional to my grey hairs .

Assumingly the poise of ageing coupled with the powerful influence of some circumstances recently gifted me this fortunate serendipity of shedding a terrible trait of being ardently judgmental.

Until a few years back I had awfully rigid opinions on many matters that were by no means unshakable. Everything was black and white for me, nothing was grey .Cut and dry were my convictions, open and shut were my beliefs.

But in the recent past, unintentionally, I propelled through a marvelous metamorphosis that opened the doors to a much insightful world. As I evolved I felt an extreme sense of freedom from a formidable fort built of uncompromising rules and regulations that I ceremoniously followed.

I slowly tried to step into the shoes of the others with whom I interact .Though tedious I waded through the undercurrents of thoughts which might have forced them to behave in a particular manner. Many a times I engaged in an imaginary colloquy with the accused who supposedly did not adhere to the norms that I believed in .Thus I could comprehend and decode the secrets behind the words and actions that I encountered from the other side .

This paved way for a tranquil transformation of myself from a judgmental moron to an analytical human. When I started this new practice I stumbled on a conclusion that nothing is eternally wrong and nothing is eternally right .I am sure most of us would have miserably observed that our once staunch faiths turned out to be utter bloopers on a later date or vice versa .What we are sure about is just this moment and I would like to believe that nobody does anything with an offensive inhuman intention.

I began to love the twinkle of goodness that I explored in others .I could understand the helplessness in people that wheeled them to many so called aberrant rides. It made me discover that sparks of selfish motives were impregnated by intense self-love .

Then came the ecstatic realization that it was only human to have a melange of states of mind, may it be love, lust , greed ,hatred, possessiveness, desires, dreams and what not ! Acceptance of the most straight and simple thought to “live and let live” makes life so much lighter.

Leaving behind the habit of finger-pointing that plants a wicked kick in us and to set out seeking serene pastures of blissful emotional prosperity shall be definitely worth attempting.

Now that I have emerged out of my cold dark conservative cocoon I can feel the warm joyous flutters of the wings of reasoning eager to nourish my mind with sweet liberal perceptions.

Let me make a candid confession here and beseech apology to all those whom I had expressed contempt and criticism while I was inflicted with the judgmental virus.

I truly trust that often in the windmills of busy solitude shall we reinvent ourselves and redeem our souls to shine with a graceful splendor!

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Malini
March 28, 2021 at 12:35 am

A intellectual peice of writing.I too think it’s really good if we all recognize our negative traits before its late and try to enjoy life as it comes with its ups and downs



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